Adele recently let everyone in on what she was battling insider her personal life. In an interview for her feature in the December issue of Vanity Fair, the singer lets her guard down a bit, opening up about motherhood, relationships and battling depression for a majority of her life.
When her son, Angelo Konecki, was born, that struggle completely changed—but only after she “snapped out” of her postpartum depression.
Her precious baby is her world and nothing comes in the way of that so her entire schedule revolves around him. “I don’t mind, because of the love I feel for him,” she admitted. “I don’t care if I don’t ever get to do anything for myself again.”
“Having a hangover with a child is torture,” she joked before getting serious. “Since I’ve had my baby, I’m not as carefree as I used to be. I’m scared of a lot of things now because I don’t want to die; I want to be around for my kid. I’m very cautious.”
“I used to love to be drunk, but as I got more famous I would wake up the next morning and think, ‘What the f–k did I say and who the f–k did I say it to?'” she explained. “I can see from an outsider’s perspective that I will never write songs as good as the ones that are on 21, but I’m not as indulgent as I was then, and I don’t have time to fall apart like I did then.”
She continued, “I was completely off my face writing that album, and a drunk tongue is an honest one. I would drink two bottles of wine, and I would chain-smoke. Then I’d write the lyrics down and the next morning think, ‘F–k, that’s quite good.'”
“It’s the most serious relationship I’ve ever been in; we’ve got a child together and we live together,” she told Vanity Fair. “I have no desire to be with anyone in show business, because we all have egos. He’s not threatened by any stage of my life that I’m going for, and that’s an amazing thing.”
“After releasing my first album, all the other people I ever was with were so insecure about themselves—they couldn’t handle it at all,” she revealed. “When I try to describe this to my friends they don’t always get it, because they go out with people that are our age, but Simon is already who he is, and I’m still becoming who I’m going to be. He’s confident. He’s perfect.”
“All of my relationships are more important to me than any tour I’ll ever do. If my relationship with Simon or my relationship with Angelo started to flounder a bit now, I would pull out of my tour,” she confessed. “My life is more important to me than anything I’m doing because how the f–k am I supposed to write a record if I don’t have a life? If I don’t have a real life, then it’s game over anyway.”